This little quote is from my novel and I think it’s something I often think while looking in the mirror. I’m not sure about you but sometimes it feels like I am not my body. I am not the person I see in the mirror. And my mind doesn’t conform to whatever image I present to the outside world. I can be polished, I can be amusing, I can be so many different things, but inside I am suffering. Inside I am bombarded with racing thoughts, inside I am fighting a battle, while outside I might look as though nothing is wrong and I am sure that this is the case for so many people who suffer with mental illness. We hide it. We feel that no one will understand us.
This quote is from the part in my book where I reveal how Victoria first started having panic attacks. She is a child. She looks into the mirror and realizes that it is her own reflection staring back at her, but she suddenly knows that even though she looks the same on the outside, her inside, her mind world has changed, perhaps forever. “A door has been opened that I can never close again.”